Pack ‘er up, Baby!

So I’m packing up the past and moving in a positive and healthy direction!  Throwing out a lot of darkness and disappointments, and packing away some very good memories  that I need to get beyond in order to move forward.  They’ve been a great comfort, but have also stalled me, kept me stuck in a rut and in a place that is holding me back from where I want to be.  So it is time that they be carefully packed away for safe keeping until those memories can become warm, comforting memories of the past instead of a roadblock to progress.  Moving on!

And speaking of darkness and disappointments…..

This is our starting point.  Photo is from July, but nothing’s changed since then (the rut, remember??)

Happy Holidays

Merry Christmas to one and all!!
My very best wishes for a wonderful holiday season!!

🙂

No Regrets!




Never have regrets because at one point everything you did in life was exactly what you wanted.

I believe and live this .  Yes, in following my heart or my head at various times I have caused great pain to some that I love, but if I have a regret, that is the only one – having caused that pain.

It’s the end of another year – a year of good, a year of bad and one of great indifference.  A year of highs and a year of lows.  And yet, as the end of 2012 approaches, I find that I have made some good progress and no progress at all.  Isn’t that how life goes?

It seems my dream of the other night came true, as last night I was presented with the contract to stay on at my new job after my seasonal contract expires.  Maybe they planned that as a Christmas gift, or maybe not, but it was a nice one.    Let’s face it, until I actually had a contract presented, I didn’t really believe that I would be staying on but Yay!  I have a job for the new year (and one I like)!  Still holding out hope for full-time work, but beggars can’t be choosers.  🙂

So enough with the pity party (Table for One!).  Let’s get on with making those changes that I had started talking about a few months ago when I started this diatribe.  Things will be looking up from here, so it’s time to get off my fat ass, quit complaining about my fat ass, and do something about it as I promised myself I would a year ago!!

From here on in, we’re moving onward and upward to find downward movement on the scales, and not in my head!  Forget about waiting ’til New Years, we are starting today!!

Life

Life.  It is what it is.  Whatever it is, it’s all in how you take it.  I’m liking this attitude today:

Things turn out best for people who make the best out of the way things turn out.


Crazy how life goes.  I was on top of the world just a couple of years ago.  I was lookin’ hot and doing well professionally, making a six-figure salary and had a lot of good friends in my daily life who I cared about and who cared about me.  I had the support of my co-workers and was doing a great job at what I did.  I was also in line to replace my boss when he retired, and did that.  What a ‘top of the world’ kinda time it was!  And it was…. Awesome.  I loved that time in my life.

But life always has a way of smacking you down when you are feeling good, doesn’t it?!

Now, just a few years later, I am no longer lookin’ hot nor am I doing well.  Though at long last I have a temporary, part-time job, it’s no six figure salary but then, it’s no six-figure stress and daily crying jag either.

I just wonder sometimes how I’m gonna make it through the next few hours.  I feel like such an absolute failure at not having been able to handle things in my former job.  Had I perhaps been able to cope a bit better with the Boss From Hell (hereinafter referred to as BFH), maybe life would still be ok.  Not great, I’d hate my job and every minute of my day, but at least not where I am now – feeling helpless and defeated.

Did I mention I was a bit of a foodie??  NEWS!!

Not only is the Blackberry still a POS, but now The Hubby is also out of a job and I am once again the primary breadwinner, only this time minimum wage won’t quite cut it!!  I have absolutely no idea how I’m going to keep my home and/or my sanity.  But at least I have a few hours out of the house once in awhile to earn some $$, meet a few people and have a few laughs.  And there are many who have it worse, so (yeah, yeah!) one has to keep perspective on these things.

Had a dream last night that I got a job at a local school board.  Maybe that’s a sign that I stand a chance for this one!?


All of the top people who have supported me throughout my working career were in the dream, so maybe it’s a sign.  Even some of the people from my new, temporary job.  So maybe.  Yeah, maybe…




Ciao for now!  Rrraaawwhhh!

Luray Caverns, Virginia

Just a quick update for ya:
So, the next time I casually mention that I’m going to do a BB upgrade, someone please, please tell me to STOP!!!!!   Seriously glad that I have learned the value of a regular backup (appreciative head tip to a longtime friend!)

Over it!  Now on to something new…..  🙂

Have you been to the Luray Caverns in Virginia??
I have to say that this is one of the most amazing places I’ve visited – certainly in terms of caves.  Mind you, being more than a little claustrophobic, I admit that caves are not generally at the top of my ‘Must Do’ list.  But I was strong that day, folks, and the idea of the walls closing in wasn’t as overpowering as it has been in the past.  Let me set the scene – It was a glorious spring day in Virginia.  80+ degrees and we were lounging by the pool with a cold one or two when we decided that the perfect place to be was underground in a cool, dark and damp cave.  Of course!  of course…  makes sense to me….  Um, ‘scuse me – pool sounds good!

But my resistance was clearly lessened by the aforementioned cold one’s and off we went (ps, one of us had not had any ‘cold one’s’) through the beautiful Shenandoah Valley (yes, the one in the John Denver song!!)

to see the Caverns.  Honestly, had I not gone, I would have missed one of the most spectacular sites within a day’s driving distance of my home that I could have imagined.  This is definitely not the Bonnechere Caves, which is certainly much closer to home, but also definitely not the same kinda cave.  Much less claustrophobia-friendly too, though I have made it through.  Once.  Only once.

The Luray Caverns are, in a word, Spectacular.  Like nothing I’ve seen before.  But then, the Shenandoah Valley has it’s own beauty and is definitely worth the drive/visit.  Here is just a sample of the sights you will see if you get the chance to visit this amazing place, deep in the heart of the Shenandoah Valley.

The caves were originally discovered by some dude out for a walk in the hills who felt a breeze coming up from a quarter-sized hole in the ground.  He dug down and “Bammo!”  He found himself in an amazing cavern that just went on and on in the dark, seemingly without end.  Imagine!!

Titania’s Veil

Over the years that the site has been open to the public, the various and amazing features have been given names that reflect the colours and/or physical features of the formation.  This one is very light in colouring, which reflects the various compounds that make up the feature, so they have named it “Titania’s Veil” ’cause it kinda calls to mind the image of a veil (guess that was obv…sorry.).

Mirror Lake – the ceiling is reflected in the pool below!
Mirror Lake again.  It’s too amazing for one pic!
Just a big huge stelag(something) that I thought looked like
the formations in the Grand Canyon/Arizona.
A HUGE dripping stelactite!!
They call this ‘drapery’ and it’s a pretty accurate description!
There’s actually a path through this beauty!

There is also a wide open space underground where they hold weddings and ping notes off of the various stelactites/stelagmites to play a tune. I have to say, that’s pretty cool.

The paths within the caverns are cobblestone and entirely walkable, though there is a large staircase you initially need to descend and then ascend at the end of a 1.5 mile walk through the caves so be warned!

This place is definitely worth the trip and the walk and time away-from-pool time!  It’s truly an amazing place, and needs to be on anyone’s ‘Must Do’ list.

Hope you get the chance to go and enjoy it as much as we did!!  It’s truly amazing what the world brings us. Namaste.

Note to Self!!



And the good times just keep on coming – NOT!  I think I’ve killed my Blackberry!!  Say it isn’t so!!  Not my beloved Blackberry!!

Blackberry Torch 9810
(Not really me!)



    How ever will I survive?!?!






Why do they tell you to do an upgrade and then the upgrade kills your phone??  Seriously, what fresh hell is this?!  Is it all part of a secret plot to get you to upgrade your phone??  Methinks??  Maybe??

Listen, I’ve taken the battery out.  I’ve plugged it in to the computer.  I’ve done all I know how to do.  I can’t even restore from a backup, since the computer isn’t recognizing that it’s plugged in!!  Aaaaahhhhh!!!!!!

Sorry….  Just a momentary freak out.  I’m sure it will be fine.  Right?  No, really, right??

Today is the deadline for applying for a job in Nova Scotia.  Wouldn’t a move be a great thing right about now?  A fresh start in a new place that is, which any luck, on the water!!  Would be awesome.  Time to get that resume in!

Working a good long shift at the store today and then looking forward to meeting a good friend for dinner afterwards.  Keeping the expenses as low as possible, though, as retail doesn’t pay for a steak dinner – more like a salad.  A side salad!  No chicken additions, please!

‘Case you were curious, the fifth attempt at a BB upgrade is making progress as we share this time.  Fingers crossed!!

 

Reality

I’ve been away for awhile.  I apologize.  Again.

I’ve finished reading “The Drunk Diet” by Luc Carl and it was definitely a good read.  I’ve gained a whole host of inspirational ideas and his writings have inspired me to re-activate my Twitter account (@murfkitten) that I had actually de-activated for a second time.  It’s not that I hadn’t enjoyed the Twitter community, it is that I had enjoyed it too much and was receiving criticism for doing so from those in my life who didn’t understand thSo e absolute need for the Twitter world.

I was contemplating deleting all mention and affect of this blog, as life has raised it’s ugly head and things aren’t working out as they should.  Um, I think that is life, really.  So much for me saying “Suck it up, Buttercup”.  I’m pretty much the Buttercup, myself.

So I’m still here, though clearly neglectful, and still trying to make my peace with the world, my workouts, and the job hunt.  I am continually disappointed on the job front, and I continue to disappoint myself in getting my ass back on the treadmill, but at least I have intention!  Intention is a good thing, really, as it leads one to think you might get there, ultimately!!  And I’m pretty sure I will.  I’m just neglecting it so that my feet are ok for the times I need to work.

I COMPLETELY enjoy my time on the sales floor at the book store.  I love engaging with customers and giving them guidance on book choices that I have enjoyed, as well as having the opportunity to share my enjoyment of food/cookbooks and well being/self-help stuff.  I swear, I’ve done it all!!!  Or at least tried. 🙂

I was soooooo thrilled the other night to hear from my GM that he wants to offer me a part time position at the end of my seasonal contract.  How Great Is That?!?!?  Totally Great!!  I’m thrilled!!  Especially since ‘The Hubby’ has received his lay-off notice and will be out of a job (after 15+ years) as of December 21.  Merry Frickin’ Christmas to us!!!!  So I still don’t have a solid job, and ‘The Hubby’ will now be joining me on the unemployment lines.  Yay!!  What fun!  Good times.  Really

So I get that I’ve been gone awhile, but I hope that you will, after reading where we are right now, understand our predicament.  We are both doing our best to make this world work for what we need.  Who knew that things would go this way.  It just sucks, is all.  Badly!!

New reading

O M G, I’ve found the most amazing Christmas gift for a writer who occasionally experiences blocks (like myself, obv,) or a writer wannabee!!  (Raincoaster – do not read this!!) 
Could not leave the store last evening without purchasing a copy with someone in particular in mind.  Yes, I realize that I am building the suspense to a point where you need to find out of which gift I am speaking,  but if you are raincoaster, go away.  Otherwise, continue to read…
What I have found, on referral from a client, is a journal that is filled has ideas to write about for each day!  It’s awesome!  I bought two!!  642 Things to Write About  It has ideas like this – “You are awakened in bed by the wife of the man you are in bed with – what are you thinking?!” or “You are the new President of the United States.  642 outrageous and witty writing prompts will get the creative juices flowing in no time. What’s on your agenda today?”  Interesting ideas to get the juices flowing, no?  (I’m just hoping that Raincoaster isn’t reading this or he/she/it might know what one of his/her/its Christmas gifts might be…)




(Raincoaster may resume his/her/its reading pleasure…)

Ok, for those of you who signed on to find out about my fitness regime and crap like that, gotta say that I haven’t started yet.  DID get the hubby to get my treadmill back in order so it is ready for me when I decide to get the butt back onto it, but in the meantime, I’m reading books about working out and getting in shape.  Does that count for anything??  Probably not, but for those who might want to know why I’m struggling, perhaps the book I’m currently reading will give you a clue to my workout routine.  It is a book by Luc Carl, called The Drunk Diet.  I think he gets me, really!!  I want to get fit, but am not fully committed to giving up the love of the drink (though in my case, a nice glass of wine, not beer)
So you may understand now why I’ve not really (or actually) begun the fitness segment of my ‘once and again renew anew‘ plan, but I’m still working towards that.  And that means I’m pretty normal, really, so I need you to hang in there with me.  I’m still working through!!  Am growing out my hair, as Luc has done, but am still trying to psych myself up for the first treadmill run.Let’s face it, though, the treadmill is less daunting than the street run, in that there is no uneven terrain and there is (more importantly) no freakin’ cold weather!!  While I love running in the rain, even a cold rain, I don’t love running in the fall transition from lovely warm fall weather to the cold, damp fall/winter weather that we are now in.  Should’a got out there before now, but now I’m working on the treadmill phase.  Once I’m back on the ‘mill, and the winter sets in with all of it’s beauty (and I love running on a summer’s eve) I’ll be fine and get back outside.  Just gotta start inside for now, which sucks.  Since I’m on my feet all day, and I have ‘bad’ feet in the first place, I’m going to restart my running on the low impact treadmill and lose some poundage, before I hit the outside streets and enjoy the Christmas lights and season on outdoor runs.
So stick with me and I’ll stick with you as we face the journey together.  It will all be worth it in the end, and you may learn something (or get some tips anyway) along the journey!!Enjoy!!

Mondays :/

 


It’s Monday.  I’m not skipping with joy.  I have the day off of work but, know what?  Even after 3 years of virtual unemployment (save a paycheque and a few short weeks back in the workplace) Mondays still suck whether I work or not.  I think it’s just because it’s Monday and it’s supposed to be a fresh start on the world.  Whatever!!!

Let’s not kid about it.  It just generally sucks when Mondays come around.  And they come around every seven days (WTF!?!).  Yeah, it would suck even more if Monday didn’t come around ’cause we’d probably be dead if that were the case but still, if you’re not one of those people with a terminal disease or who embrace every day as the first day (blah! – though I respect you greatly! 🙂  ), then ….  Mondays generally suck!!  Period.

But, as dedicated readers may know, I had an interview with a company last week ‘about which I am very excited’ (for those who need reasonably correct grammar) or that I’m really, seriously stoked about (for the otherwise grammar’d!).  Still have my fingers crossed on that one.  But as life would have it, I now also have an interview at another employer in the area and I can’t believe my luck!  Two interviews in such a short period, and an actual job!  I’ve been applying for so long and it’s finally paying off!  They (you know, that ‘They’) are always saying that it comes in threes and here ‘they‘ are.  I’m happy for it, I just gotta say.

And that’s kinda all I gotta say today.  Have a good one if you can!!  It’s Monday, after all…





Global thoughts

O M G, had a job interview the other day for a job that I would LOVE to get.  The position is Office Manager at an environmental agency and taps into all of my prior work experience and who I am as a person.  It’s a do-everything/organize everything job and that’s sooooo who I am.  Added bonus is that it is with an environmentally focused company that is focused on reducing greenhouse gases and hydro/water usage and I’m SOLD!!

In light of the questions related to Hurricane Sandy and global warming, we could all stand to pay attention to our environmental impact, reducing our carbon footprint and emissions.  Just sayin’.

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